Sunday, August 23, 2009
I'm Back
Monday, February 9, 2009
Awakening: So long...
"Negativity is contagious
Some can beat it by being courageous
Others succumb to it and become dangerous
Protecting a positive environment
Is creating a life of peace and contentment!"
-D.L. Carroll
This is an excerpt from a poem that I found and this particular part of the poem spoke volumes to my heart. This painting above is by one of my favorite artist Vincent Van Gogh, and this is also one of his art pieces that I love the most.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Black History Moment: SPOTLIGHT
"Black & Blue"
Cold empty bed springs hurt my head
Feels like ole ned wished I was dead
What did I do to be so black and blue
Even the mouse ran from my house
They laugh at you and all that you do
What did I do to be so black and blue
I'm white inside but, that don't help my case
That's life can’t hide what is in my face
How would it end ain't got a friend
My only sin is in my skin
What did I do to be so black and blue
How would it end I ain't got a friend
My only sin is in my skin
What did I do to be so black and blue
blue eyes.
In her eleven years, no one had
ever noticed Pecola. But with blue
eyes, she thought, everything
would be different. She would be
so pretty that her parents would
stop fighting. Her father
would stop drinking. Her brother
would stop running away. If
only she could be beautiful.
If only people would look at her.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Religious Hippie 101: No holding back!
Every single day I seem to learn something new about my self, one of them is that nothing seems to impress me, no seriously absolutely nothing. Sometimes when I meet new people I notice they do something that mostly a lot of people do, they brag about how great they are, and I'm like oh my gosh if you have to boast about yourself you've pretty much lost my interest. I don't know what it is but when ever I hear people brag I often feel like their hiding something from others or they are afraid people won't like them for who they really are, or their just insecure. I guess the real reason bragging really doesn't impress me is because my father loves to boast and brag about himself. I do not not have the best relationship with my dad and it seems when every I'm around him he is more interested in bragging and showing off to others instead of trying to show how much he loves his daughters. Thats why when ever people try to impress me or brag I see a piece of my father in them and it scares me....Another thing I learned about myself that stems from not being impressed by anything is that I try to boost peoples confidence and show them their great qualities, although I do not do that enough for my self I noticed when people compliment me I bring myself down, not because I think I am inferior its just a habit. I recall developing this "bad habit" in elementary school I lost a lot of friends because we would often try to compete with one another, those are usually the worst friendships although some people enjoy it, I DON'T! All of my competitive friendships ended with me and the other person completely disregarding one another. Another thing I also learned about myself is that I am the peace maker I always want everyone to be happy and comfortable I love making people feel like they can be their "real" selves around me. I kind of have that hippie mentality peace and love rules my life I remember having two friends in high school who hated each other but I was friends with both of them, to make a long story short I stopped being friends with one of them because I realized I couldn't solve every problem I faced and that not everyone has to be friends or even like each other. My mom always tried to teach me not to change people because only God can change his children, so I'm still trying to accept people for their flaws and all...
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
New Edition!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
INFATUATION T!ME
Scarfs are the business, this is the only reason I actually like winter!
MUWAHAHAHAH! yes my tissue box is neon colored LOL!!!!!!!
Saturday, January 31, 2009
LIVE. LOVE. LIFE: Edition
Okay so hellop! Happy New Year...
So basically I have really gone through a lot last year (2008) I started college, lived away from home, not for the first time, but yea I was away from home for about three to four months and I have learned soooooo much and grown sooo much from that experience! You really learn more about yourself when you live away from home. It was such a difficult and trying experience but it really helped me grow to love and except people for the way they are and not judge them and cast them off with some objective label, now I am not going to lie I do from time to time slip up and bash people for their unusual or rather perplexed ways but hey I'm human, who doesn't do that? But non the less I have grown to appreciate life for what its worth. I care more about the simple things and less about the material things that will get me no where. I remember when I was in junior high school and high school all I cared about was looks and clothes I was so shallow and my self esteem was transparent, basically no where to be found. But after high school I began to realize what is most important in life:
God
My la familia
& My loved ones
Nothing else matters to me anymore but those things, because all those Jordans sneakers and clothes I use to obsess over are all gone they no longer have any value to me, It was pointless buying all these clothes to impress people at school who could care less about me. Like seriously what a waste of a life, but then again thats what life is all about when your young you have not yet developed true values in life, but once you start to work and have to fend for yourself you wise up a bit and start to see things a bit more rationally, thank the LORD! because those Jordans was cuttin into my mamas pockets! lol But overall I'm just so happy to be alive and well and to have my faith, my family and to truly understand what love is all about, I'm not quite there but what I have learned about love is that Christ love is the best, It doesn't matter how much money you have how good you look or where you come from, he knows exactly who you are and he loves you for who you truly are, and that alone makes me love myself, knowing that there is at least one person out their who loves "me" just the way I am...and thats all that really matters...LIVE.LOVE.LIFE!
W.H.A.T| M.A.T.T.E.R.S|!!!!!!!!!!!!
*singing* she got a donk! j/k my lovely cousin Rudy!
The funniest women you will ever meet! They are loved!
My mom & I at the Salt Lake Temple: My first love
ELLE POOH! My staying up watching youtube videos buddy!